To My First-Born on New Year’s Day

Dear Z,

As I type this, you’re snoring beside me even though the whole country is welcoming in 2015. We’ll try to look for fireworks later today because I told you we’ll see the sky light up.

I’m really amazed with how much you’ve grown this past year. I started off 2014 with a baby and here we are now — you’re almost at 20 kilos and wears 5 year old clothes! You’re also more verbal and quite demanding at that. I can see that you got my knack for being persistent and wouldn’t ask for help without trying to do a task yourself. We’re both stubborn in that sense. I love how you start each day with a smile and a good morning kiss for me and Daddy. And whenever your face lights up when you see Daddy wake up brings so much joy in my heart.

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You might be feeling that big changes are going to happen soon. It might be a scary thing but I promise you that we’ll go through it together. I’m scared also, my little boy, but I know that as a family, we’ll face these challeneges head-on. It might be too much pressure for you to be a big brother but don’t worry. Take your sweet time adjusting. And if ever I pressure you to do something you are not yet ready to, remind me of this post.

You might be worried that I will love you less once your baby sister is here. There might even be people who will tell you that you are no longer Mommy and Daddy’s baby. Please, please, please ignore these people. A mother’s heart multiplies with every birth of a child. You will always have a piece of my heart and soul and my love for you will never, ever lessen or change. Remember that!

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Having a sibling is probably one of the best gift there is. You may not agree with this for a few years but when you two (or three) are a tag team in mischief, you’d get what I’m saying. I wasn’t too thrilled myself when I became a big sister. But I know my life wouldn’t be this happy without your Tito Bibs. So, I really understand what you’ll be going through.

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Let’s just take it one step at a time. I promise you that I’ll be with you each step of the way.

I love you very much my Zoren, to infinity and beyond!